Was that a mental breakdown?
I think you are a bit angry about formula 1 because it has left you behind in terms of what is required.
"F1 only uses supplied engines as a bolt on part. Bit like shopping at Sainsbury"
The engines don't just appear from the sky, they have to be designed and developed.
I'm not with you in regards to "developing F1 engines in the real world"?
Also another reference to computers, they only do what they are told, humans can do exactly the same but it would take a lot longer.
I'm not sure what you want to achieve, but wether working in F1 aero is a high enough achievement is a completely personal oppinion.
I'm sure none of teams want you to drive their cars either.